haiz... 2day go out vif her agin... but after come back... my heart lik vry weird lik that... suffer... dunwan do anytins lik tat... but reli dunno where gon wrong...
haiz... 2day go out vif her and sum other ppls... reli vry different vif yesterday d situation... 2day my heart was reli gt d kind of unease... worry lik that... gt sumtimes i wan do sumtins oso dun dare... when i sit beside of her reli wan 2 hold her hand at cinema man... haiz... anyways dunwan say so many liao...
then when go eat... then reli pokkai liao... cant belanja her... hey... wat m i doing man? where r all my money gone? reli hate myself 4 keep didn't save money 4 long time... keep waste 4 such a s2pid place... siao lah... d heart dunno how 2 describe oso... when i saw d tins that she lik but i counldnt buy... muz reli work much from now and save more money liao... sing k and wangan and eat much b less and cut it... thx jia hao 4 help me tin of a job... hope can get change from tis...
4 d money muz fight now!!!
then i reli feel that i dunno how 2 care about ppls lik tat... many times i reli wan 2 care about her when there r tins come but i reli dunno where 2 or how 2 start... reli tin tat i totally failure man... sien d loh... when i saw other ppl can reli so care like that but wat m i doing? wat m i avoid 4? haiz... i dunwan tis...
haiz... how 2 let her b "xin fu" lik tis? i reli blur 4 myself... i dunno wat m i gonna do... ya lah... i m nth 4 her man... but at least i wan let her happy a bit can liao... d heart still unstable lik tat... haiz... gtg now...
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Stopped writing @ 12/27/2007